I know Jace is only almost 4, and it may seem dramatic to say all I see is a one way path to jail, but sadly, that's all I see more and more. I'm not a person prone to depression, and I should probably stop reading the news, because all I see when I see a criminal is Jace in that spot 20 years from now.
That's horrible I know. l hate to admit it. It makes me extremely depressed. He can't even control himself around me though, and I'm his mom and he loves me. He rages, hits me, slaps me, scratches me...gets red in the face from raging uncontrollably, has holes in the door, and Cody and I seem powerless to help him. The older and stronger he gets, the worse I fear it will be.
How do I give him tools to help? I feel like a failure. I'm exhausted, I'm depressed. I don't know how to be a good mom to him. I feel like I have Ashlynn taken care of, and under control, but I have no idea how to deal with Jace.
It's funny, because I'm more confident now Ashlynn will have a good future than I am about Jace. He's smart, he's talented in many ways, he's creative, and yet I fear more for him and his future.
Cody once said he knows he will be a successful father if he can keep Ashlynn off the pole. How then, do we keep Jace out of jail? I can't live with myself he doesn't grow up to be a good person.
Consistent consequences - check.
Found his currency - check
Parenting peacefully - check I give hugs, hold his hand, provide deep pressure and compression
Two parents - check
Stable home- check
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