This year you went to Estes Park with the family. I stayed behind because I had to work. I could have taken off, but I'm trying to dig us out of debt and I can't do that by taking trips.
I always feel so guilty and worry you will think I never wanted to be with you, or I was never around. I hope when you are older you realize that couldn't be further from the truth. I'm going to dig us out of here. Daddy is sick. He's not sick right now, but he has a very scary illness and at a moments notice, his brain can get triggered and take him away from us again. The stress of work makes this worse, so right now I am working and I'm okay with that. I'm determined to find a way to get out of this paycheck to paycheck mess we are in.
Les Brown says we have to do what is hard now, so it's easy later. I'm promising you it's going to be easy later. I'm going to make all your sports games and I'm going to be there for you like I want to be. Like you deserve.
I was feeling sad tonight and found this on my computer end table. It made my night. Love you little man.
Love,
Mommy
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