OT concerns in Jace.....say it ain't so

Jace has his issues, but it has been a relief to see he doesn't have any overt challenges like his sister.  You just want the best for your kids, and Jace seems to be able to hang with the program.

The other day the preschool OT caught me in the hall, and told me Jace seems to have some hand weakness.

I blinked, maybe twice...maybe three times.  Jace?  No.

"He really can't hold a scissors and cut," she continued.

"Oh yeah, I know.  He sucks at cutting, but seriously, he's just not interested, and when he's not interested, it looks like he can't do it."

"Oh I thought that too maybe," she continued.  "So I really made an effort to work with him before break, and I think now he avoids scissors because they are hard."

Blink blink.

Wow.

So many things were running through my head. Jace needs OT too??  How do both of my kids need a therapy I never even heard of before I started working?  Maybe it's genetic.....that means Ashlynn having apraxia definitely isn't my fault...even though I know it's not my fault.  Oh, but, if it's genetic, why the hell do Cody and my genes suck?

Stop.

"I'd be happy to see him on an informal basis," she smiled.

"Um...yes.  Yes of course.  Thank you!  Whatever will help him."

I started thinking about OT things Ashlynn works on....like catching a ball. Though I did just post Jace finally caught a ball last month....it has been a "thing."  A peculiar thing, because other motor skills are so normal or advanced, why hasn't he been able to catch a ball?

My mind started racing.  Jace has over-sensitive sensory issues.  Sensory issues are related to OT.  He doesn't like graphics on his shirts because the back of them "hurt" his tummy. He hates his shoes too tight. He can't stand it if his socks are rotated even remotely off, I had to cut tags out of his shirts when he was little......no, no no. Shit, shit, shit.

Jace is normal.  Okay that's a horrible word.  Jace is typical.  He's fine.  Not BOTH my babies.  NO.

I texted Cody what she said.

"That's why we are paying for school right?" he responded.

Deep breath.  Yes.

Sadness swept over me.  Jace has been saying lately, or rather wailing lately, that he doesn't want to go to school.  He can't ever tell me why. Is it because it is hard?  IDK.  IDK.

Not Jace too.  Dear Lord, pray for my babies.